Now for some med school updates

So here's what we've been up to:

I absolutely love Gross Anatomy! My favorite class ever! I could be in the gross lab every day!
Microanatomy- eh, not my fav, but its ok
Physiology- Hate!!!

All the upperclassmen keep telling us that med school is on a different wavelength, and all you have to do is figure out how to study and then its easy (or at least not as hard). Well, no one seems to be sharing this secret on "how to study." I guess that its different for everybody. But i'd really like to figure it out for physiology. Although, the NBME (finals) is in 3 weeks, so i guess its too late. I'm just trying to keep my head afloat! I do NOT want to retake this class. Please, please let me pass the NBME so i dont have to repeat!

Well, here are some fun things we have gotten to do in Gross:
as you saw from the last post, we cut out the intestines and cleaned out the poop
One day we had to cut our body in half! and that was me with the saw thank you very much!
Recently we've been on the pelvic region, so we had to cut a penis in half. Our body is female, so we just had to observe that one!
I am super excited about the pelvic region cause we all know that i'm aiming to be a gyno!

Next week we get to learn how to do the pelvic exam. I am so excited!!!

The Ruie Poop Story

OK, for those of you that still check this thing, if you haven't heard the Ruie story, here it is:

So on one of the end tables in our living room is a bowl of chocolates. Its been there ever since we've been married. Ruie has NEVER bothered it. In fact, the dog has never had people food. She wont go near it, even if we tried to give her some. So one day, I come home from school to fine that Ruie has had diarrhea and vomiting at least 12 times all over our living room and kitchen. Now when i say everywhere, let me paint you a picture! Seriously, I could not walk through my house without having to strategically plan my next step. And the smell!!! Oh my gosh... The Smell! So, i get on the phone and I call Hunter. I'm near Hysterics right now, and I am telling him to get home NOW. Of course he does not realize the magnitude of the mess awaiting him. So he walks in expecting one or 2 piles. Ha! He immediately has to turn around and go find somewhere to rent a Rug Doctor! I stay behind to attempt to clean the kitchen floor. All the time, poor Ruie has been locked in the bathroom, just in case she wasn't finished. Hunter makes it back with the Rug Doctor and It takes 3 hours to clean our carpet. THREE hours. and if you've been to our apartment, you know its not a big place. Oh, and how did we know it was chocolate that made her sick? Well, it wasnt because the bowl was empty. When Hunter started cleaning up the carpet, he noticed some shiny sliver pieces in the poo. From what he was able to deduce, she only had 3 Hershey Kisses. So she was in no danger of being really sick, but we were still concerned. So that was Wednesday.

Thursday, Friday, Saturday goes along. Still some bathroom problems, but not in the house, only when she went outside.

Sunday:
its sunday night and we are watching tv in our bedroom, and Ruie is laying in the bed with us. She hadnt had any more accidents so we thought she would be fine with us while we watched tv. Except that we both fell asleep with her on the bed... Big Mistake! I wake up around 4 am and there is this terrible smell. I wake up Hunter and tell him Ruie needs to go out now, she has bad gas. So i get up and turn on the light, and it wasn't gas! yep, it was diarrhea, in my bed. My BED!!! and Poor Ruie didnt even know she had done it, because she was asleep lying in it. So when Hunter finally sees the bed, and He jumps out of it, well this wakes up Ruie so she jumps out of the bed. And what do dogs to when they wake up... They shake. And there goes poo, all over our walls!! It was bad! He throws her in the shower, i start taking off the sheets and putting them in the washer. I put our comforter in a trashbag to be taken to the dry cleaners the next day, and then i get started on cleaning the walls. :( Then, we finally get back into bed around 5:30 am.
Monday:
We over sleep, obviously. we dont have time to shower, so we just grab the comforter, grab our backpacks and get in the car. We make it to the dry cleaners and start telling the lady what happened. Her first response is. "well, is it dry?" Hunter's like I dont know! its been in the bag. Now for those of you who know Hunter, He is usually slow to get angry, but when he does get angry (not at me ofcourse) it is really funny, cause its a rare thing! Anyway, after arguing with her for a few minutes about the differences in biohazards being wet or dry, she refuses to take it. So now, we are 15 min late to class with a poopy comforter. WE dont have time to go back to home, so we have to open it up in the car, crack the windows, and just leave it.

We finally make it to class, and today we have lab in the morning. We walk into lab to find out that today is the day that we get to dissect the intestines, cut them out, and clean out the poop!!!

My heart sank.

So, I havent written in awhile, for a couple of reasons. I am suffering from severe buyers remorse. I'm really starting to wonder if this is the place for me. I mean I try to keep telling myself that God has put me here for a reason, and I'm trying to just in His judgement and not my own, but it is so hard when I feel I'm not being successful.

I came from having a 3.9 GPA to finishing my first 2 classes here with a C average. That was especially hard since one of my classes was a 79.4!!!!! I was devastated. Now I am in the next segment (Anatomy, Microanatomy, and Physiology) and I'm still not doing better. And to top it all off, the last test we had was in Physiology was a disaster. Everyone kept saying that engineers do really well on this test because its all about manipulating variables and not just rote memorization and I did worse than the class average!

So, I'm really starting to doubt my abilities here. Dont get me wrong, i know that I cant always be the best or anything like that. And I know that there are always going to be those people that make straight A's and never study. But knowing those facts that doesnt make it any easier to deal with. I just want to do better, but i honestly dont know how.

I just wish that I had more to show for all the work that I do. I mean i am giving up time with my husband, time with my family, time with my friends, time for my self! all for what? C's? ? That sucks!!! I have this nightmare that I'm never going to get into residency because they are going to look at my grades and say I'm not good enough!

I do have a degree in mechanical engineering.....

Finally Finished!

Well, today we took our Biochem final! I'm so happy to finally be done w/ these 2 classes. I feel like I have just come out of a hypnotic trance. Its Like I know I studied and learned things for the past 8 weeks, but I just dont remember all of it. Except, you know when you wake from being hypnotized you're supposed to feel refreshed, well, i just feel exhausted. I mean we took our last test on friday, and then we had all weekend to study for our final! Well, yea right! I mean did they honestly expect us to give it 100% right after an exam. Well of course I didnt study Sat or Sun, but I did study all day/night monday. But this test was hard! I mean its a national standardized test, so of course it was hard. But I only had to make above the 5th Percentile to keep my C. But I really did want to make a B on the test. So we will just have to wait and see. Grades dont come back until after Fall Break. Which did I mention, I'm super excited about Fall Break! Its gonna be so awesome, getting to get away from stress and studying and just have a week of fun w/ my husband. Yea, my husband. It's like, who's that person? I mean, Thank God we live in the same house, or we probably really wouldnt see eachother. I really do feel bad for the other married people in our class. They really are sacrificing! But I'm really looking forward to this vacation and just enjoying Hunter's company. We really dont have anything planned. It was really a last minute trip for us. So we are just going to jump on the Metro every morning and just figure it out! lol! Well, check back next week and I will put up pics of D.C.

P.S.

did i mention that we have a quiz when we get back from Fall Break! Looks like I'm studying on the plane! Oh well, I guess that's my life right now! Cant catch a break!

Finally New Furniture!

Media Chest

Dresser, we have the mirror, we just havent put it on yet

Hunter's nightstand

The Bed

My nightstand. And they come with this sliding tray on the top drawer

Chest thats in the closet

Head for the Cure

So after the Exam, hunter and I crashed. Literally, we went to bed at 7:30 pm! But the next day we got in the car and drove to MO to participate in Head for the Cure 5K to raise money for Brain Cancer Research. It was an awesome experience. To meet all these other families who have gone thru the same thing we have. Hunter's sister McKinzie has started working with the Head for the Cure President to get a race going here in AR. We are very excited to be part of this great organization and get the word out about Brain Cancer. It probably wont happen till sometime next year, there is alot of stuff to do and people to contact. I hope that all of you reading this will come to the race and show your support, even if you don't want to walk/run in it. I know it would mean alot to Hunter.

Exam 2, Good news.

Well, good news, I'm not a total loser anymore. So Exam 2 was much better than Exam 1. Overall I got a B on the test, but after they broke it down into the individual tests I ended up with a C in Biochem and a B in Cell. YEY! I was very happy to see that my class rank has gone up as well! You will also be glad to know that I did do better than Hunter this time! Woo Hoo! Not much better, but I was still excited. I guess a little healthy competition never hurt anyone, right? Not to dis Hunter, but It is just so frustrating to know that He is watching tv, while I am studying my butt off, and He still does better than me. But not this time. Even though my grade was only 2 points higher, that's still higher. LOL!